Alucard-Blood-Knight

It makes me sad. It makes me cry when it happens. But it does either way…he makes me laugh. Cry. Happy. Sad. Angry. Revolt. Envious.…he loves me and I love him. its just the fact that I cry just about every time after I get off the phone with him I start to blubber up and start to tear up. I…just feel so lonely when ever I get off the phone with him even though I know it will happen again and again I just let it. Its not good for the relationship and it's not good for both of us either but it just makes me sad….it just…makes me lonely …before I met him, I was always alone, you know alone you had people to talk to